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I used to weight 115lbs and I began to feel good about the way I looked. but then I listened to the dietition and now I weigh 140+ lbs and im going to the beach in 2 days. I look in the mirror everyday and despise what I see. It kills me that I let someone else tell me how I should look. I dont care what others think about how I look, all that matters is what I think.  Im thankful that im healthy and theres nothing wrong with me, but I just wish I could be thankful for whats on the outside as well. ive screwed up majorly.

     There is someone from my past, from the best years of my life so far, i have met again. He was still how i remembered, the same person just older. We had such a great connection, like nothing iv'e ever experienced before. Even now, ten years later I still felt that connection. He told me he had feelings for me, but then I suppose they stopped. He has found another. It would be normal to have feelings of anger, jealousy, depression, ect. and i would be lying if I said i didnt feel some of those things at first; but mainly I feel  that it is probably better to remember the relationship the way it was in the past, before we grew up. Some things are not meant to be, even if they seem perfect. I want him to be happy no matter who it is with because i truly care about him. It sounds so cliche and corny, and believe me, i am realistic when it comes to this kind of thing. i know real life is no fairytale, but I will always hold him dear in my heart. I will move on to find someone else, God willing; but the memories we shared will always go with me.




Every day is a sun rise with you.
A light that makes the shadows fade away.
The darkness is so distant now I can barely feel its chill. And no matter what we become
I will always carry a piece of you with me.
As the man that took my life with one immortal kiss
to kill me and make me his if not forever, in this one moment

I was afraid of many things, but one there is one thing that sticks out in my mind. When i was in my bed i would get scared and hide under my blankets because i was afraid that i would roll over and there would be a clown looking at me from beside my bed. that still creeps me out to think about it!

thats a hard one, they're both pretty cute, but i think i'd go with jemaine